This blog is all about keeping it real. I would be lying if I said I knew my plan in this life. I am 21 years old now & I have nothing figured out with no guidance or motivation. Even the thought of changing my daily routine now sends me into hysterics. My problem now is that I am way too comfortable, without change, I will not get anywhere in this life. I just wish I knew what steps to take, and which route to go ….. Should I go back to college, put all my time and energy into myself, and pursue my desires, should I be moved out by now, what will happen if I let loose a little and stop letting my negative thoughts get the best of me… Not knowing what you’re capable of can distract you from the goals you’ve been wanting to accomplish& stop you from reaching your full potential. I feel foolish complaining when I’m doing nothing different to my routine. I’m complaining about getting the same outcome when I don’t even give it my all like I know I can.
These few months have been the most challenging for me. I hate the negative self-talk I’ve been doing lately but, it’s just how I feel. In my head, I make these false narratives as if the whole world is against me. Alone in my room, I think to myself, what is it that you’re trying to prove, to my family, friends, co-workers, even strangers? I am trying to prove things to other people, rather than trying to prove something to myself. I desire to be prosperous. I know what I want to accomplish in this life, I just get discouraged when I don’t get any support. Without support, I don’t feel a need to keep going. That doesn’t mean I don’t want it as bad as I say I do, it simply means I am human, and I crave deep connection. Poor social support can often lead you to depression or turning to other ways to cope …
To a lovely reading, I want you to know you are your biggest self-critic, It is okay to feel lost. It is the journey you take that determines your ending. Implement small practices of self-love into your routine. Don’t be discouraged, Love yourself during the journey you take to heal, during the journey you take to reach your full potential. I want you to know you are not alone! We are going to get through this together!
xoxo.
