I want an active lifestyle. I see myself being that girl who wakes up at 5 a.m. meditates, does some yoga, hits the gym, comes home & journals for about 30 minutes, plans the rest of her day out on her iPad, cooking her avocado toast for breakfast (which I really am obsessed with), going on little adventures throughout her day, trying new cafes, doing what she loves for work, ending her night with a shower& her 3-hour long skincare routine ugh I can’t wait. That is the lifestyle I desire right now! I would love to share my fitness goals, recipes, or any goals I have regarding life in this blog. I also want you guys to share your goals! I would love to create a family from this. I want this to be our happy place. We can help each other pursue all of our desires.
self discovery …
As I get older I notice a change in how I view certain things. I realize the things/people that deserve my energy and those that don’t. This section will be for me to keep track of my growth throughout the years& hopefully, for you, my lovelies to share some of the little discoveries of “self ”.
daily essentials:
My daily essentials include lemon water, lip gloss, SPF, essential oils, lotions, perfumes,gua sha,
My lovelies I would never steer you in the wrong direction! Keep reading for some daily essentials& tips to keep you feeling alive. DRINK YOUR WATER! I can not stress this enough, I am preaching to you my lovelies, and to myself. I have been slacking with the water intake but, telling you guys will somewhat motivate me to do better! Also, keep up with your hygiene! Showers are mind cleansing too ya know! We need to wash away all that bad energy from the previous day and start all over! Furthermore, attempt to make yourself look presentable, even if you’re not feeling up for it that day, in other words, try to not look how you feel.
self doubt
This blog is all about keeping it real. I would be lying if I said I knew my plan in this life. I am 21 years old now & I have nothing figured out with no guidance or motivation. Even the thought of changing my daily routine now sends me into hysterics. My problem now is that I am way too comfortable, without change, I will not get anywhere in this life. I just wish I knew what steps to take, and which route to go ….. Should I go back to college, put all my time and energy into myself, and pursue my desires, should I be moved out by now, what will happen if I let loose a little and stop letting my negative thoughts get the best of me… Not knowing what you’re capable of can distract you from the goals you’ve been wanting to accomplish& stop you from reaching your full potential. I feel foolish complaining when I’m doing nothing different to my routine. I’m complaining about getting the same outcome when I don’t even give it my all like I know I can.
These few months have been the most challenging for me. I hate the negative self-talk I’ve been doing lately but, it’s just how I feel. In my head, I make these false narratives as if the whole world is against me. Alone in my room, I think to myself, what is it that you’re trying to prove, to my family, friends, co-workers, even strangers? I am trying to prove things to other people, rather than trying to prove something to myself. I desire to be prosperous. I know what I want to accomplish in this life, I just get discouraged when I don’t get any support. Without support, I don’t feel a need to keep going. That doesn’t mean I don’t want it as bad as I say I do, it simply means I am human, and I crave deep connection. Poor social support can often lead you to depression or turning to other ways to cope …
To a lovely reading, I want you to know you are your biggest self-critic, It is okay to feel lost. It is the journey you take that determines your ending. Implement small practices of self-love into your routine. Don’t be discouraged, Love yourself during the journey you take to heal, during the journey you take to reach your full potential. I want you to know you are not alone! We are going to get through this together!
xoxo.
neglection
Sometimes, I swear I feel being a woman is so hard! In my heart, I know the beauty of it all & I love it! There are moments in womanhood I can not wait for! As women we are meant to show selfless love, be as pure as can be, and move with grace and dignity!
As women, we must remain sweet, soft, supportive, affectionate, and understanding,
It’s incredible how we shall remain soft even after feeling neglected. How we should still tell our loved ones we love them daily while trying to remember how to love ourselves. The weight on my shoulders of them not knowing how much I love them before it is too late.
I’ve had this feeling of neglect for a while now. I guess you can say I’m the “black sheep”. I can often come off emotionally intense because of this. The feeling of being misunderstood or not being heard is frustrating. The anger built up inside of me, from unresolved situations that hadn’t left my mind. Many unanswered questions that I have to just forget about. It leaves me with many unhealthy relationships/friendships. I am trying to make amends with myself. Not only for those around me but, for me. This feeling of emotional hurt won’t go away.
I’m stuck feeling mentally &emotionally damaged. I hate this feeling but, it is like I am forced to accept it.
I am on a journey to learn about the beauty of acceptance. I have been owning my emotional needs, because I feel no shame in wanting to be loved and supported by friends& family. With acceptance, comes forgiveness. I want to forgive, I don’t want a heart filled with hate. I desire to be kind, inspirational, forgiving, genuine, loving, and understanding!
To a lovely reading, Sit down. Feel everything you need to feel! Allow it! Acknowledge your feelings& emotions. Accept them. Renew the right spirits within you.
Galatians 5:22-23
“But the fruit of the spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, and self-control. Against such things, there is no law.”
I am ready to receive a clean heart. I am ready to let go of all this hate…